exam...

when I see the word exam,
I feel a surge of panic, a sudden adrenaline rush..
and ask " what, again?"
but this time, for my mid year exam,
i encounter the most extraordinary thing...
it sort of changed my whole concept and feeling of exam...
it all happen on saturday...
it was a busy and usual saturday, the day where we went to ACS for our interschool fellowship..
it was an interesting session, Pastor Jason Fong was sharing about the Bible..
then, we went for lunch and it was kinda late and i was really worried because i felt i had no time to revise for my coming exam (which is the following tues)
so i was so tension and tired, but i wasn't in the mood to study and needed sleep...
eventually, i 'mustered all my courage' to take a nap..
low and behold, daddy just finish a movie, and started to eli..
he even switched on all the lights in the hall!!
ok, how am i suppose to sleep in that condition?
i was so frustrated and impatient..
guess what, i stood up and shouted, "how am i suppose to sleep in this situation?"
and ran upstairs into my room..
i guess everyone was shock and there was silence for a few seconds..
after that,at 4.30 was suppose to be the boling session..
i was undecided on wethew to go for it or just stay at home..
in the end, i had decided to go and the worst part is, we was LATE!
sue ann and ju greeted us with a big 'u r LATE' welcome speech...
how great huh?when u r felling at the bottom of the world, ur friends just dug it deeper..lol
at that time, i was at the breaking point and i couldn't take it much longer so i was like..
"i can't take it. I feel terrible...i didnt want to come..."
then, my tears started welling in my eyes... it was then melissa and sue ask..why>?esther..
is it because of exams?i dumbly and numbly nodded and tried to control myself...
that time, my parents were still around and i didn't want them to fuss about it..
so,i tried getting over it and to enjoy the Bowling Day..after all, we r suppose to have fun...
ok..skip all the parts...
i realise Joanne was also feeling down.
that time..i felt: hey, i am not the only one feeling stress here..
she was also filled to the brim with school activities and i guess hers is much worst...
at that time, i even counselled her...can u believe that?haha, nor can i
later at night, i don't know how Eileen found out about the whole ' esther is really stressed out' incident where she decided to have a 'chat' with me...
everyone knows that eileen's 'chat' doesn't mean anything good...ha ha
and later that night,i felt and realised something..
exam really isn't everything..
there r small and insignificant thing s like hanging out with our family that really matters..
there r exams in life that we may need to go through but...
come on, exam really isn't everything...like eileen said, " don't cry over small things like exams, in life, you will go through even more "
and with this, i end this long grandmother story with a word of advice:
if we take exam as our enemy, we will never benefit from it; but if we think it useful, we might actually see the beauty of it :) ...of course not excluding the stress and panda eyes...hahahaha